Heartaches and Tears

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From a year of working hard, last December 13, 2007, I bought a new fon... ...presenting my Sony Ericsson k850i... front back yihee! saya!

                                   SATAN's MEETING: (Read even if you're busy)                                                                                                                                                                                                                         ...

  Don't make it appear we are Ok when everythings wrong... It is the typical you, not minding what's going on, and I am so sick of it... There you go, I am letting you fly now... See you, but I don't know when... I am just so tired of everything...

I don't know what I am feeling right now... It all started last week when I was about to meet somebody that was special to me. I admit I am quite excited about it, and I believe it will push thru. But then came the day, and it was cancelled, because of some stupid reason. What is sad about it is that, even if I knew I am always being hurt by this person, I am just so forgiving to him, that is because he is someone special to me, and I love him so much. I'd been hurt again, and it is because of me. Being so gullible maybe, and believing that everything can always go well, if we want it. It was a realization that I am still broken, and I can't still start over until I am well. I want this person to know that I am not pretending, and what I tell him are not lies. Yes, I still wanna see him, and I want to spend time with him. I was really hurt to realize the facts, and it was like a hard slap on the face. I need to forget him, and I need to forget all the feelings I have for h...

  My tears just fell after I read this short story...     On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of lo...